I have started a Left Behind letter over and over and over.
Every time I have, I wondered if it was too negative. I
just could not get a "good news" message out of it as much
as I tried. Then I would think, well, there are thousands
of pieces of literature out there already - what more could
I possibly say? Then I would begin again on a more personal
note - and found I was doing too much "I told you so..."
Well, I pondered that awhile, and I realized the reason
I was so negative was because I was "angry." Yes, angry.
When I would address a certain person (in my mind's eye),
I would get angry at remembering all the times they were
witnessed to; or all the times they would say "Don't preach
at me." I would think, holy mackeral, you were with me all
this time...you HAD to see Christ SOMEWHERE in me! I would
think of all the times they called me, or turned to me in
times of trouble because they KNEW I had an inner resource
(greater is He that is within me, then he that is in the
I'd think of all the times I had interceded in prayer
on their behalf (and told them so) and they allowed it,
accepted it, while they were still needy - but then they
would turn away when the problem was over, never thanking
Jesus for the outcome. Oh I would get angry thinking about
how much I wanted to share with them - things I had heard
and learned from you dear brothers and sisters in "cyber-space"....or
when I read them a news headline that just screamed PROPHECY
FULFILLED! and they would look at me like I had two heads.
I wanted to tell them - "Look, this is coming to pass..."
"Look, things are lining up, the storm is brewing, Jesus
will be coming soon!" But they would shake their heads,
or say, "Yeah yeah, He'll come sometime - maybe now, maybe
a hundred years from now...who cares?" ("where is the promise
of his coming?") Some of them with a little more (head)
knowledge would say, "Well, there will be a lot of people
saved after that Rapture thing - didn't you say that?" And
I would tell them not to take that chance, not to be so
complacent and willing to make up their minds later for
it could be too late - for their heart might be too hardened
by then!" So what could I possibly say to them in a letter
I "felt" like telling them - "every time I witnessed to
you and every time you heard and rejected it, it will be
as hot coals heaped upon your head!"(Prov.25:22) But, hey,
this is meant for the "enemy"! Not for those you love! But
the truth is, every time they are witnessed to, every time
they reject or put off accepting the Lord, they will be
held even more accountable and without excuse. Those times
we witnessed to them will indeed become 'as coals heaped
upon their heads,'... .....we cannot remain silent....but
so often we do.
Then I tried the approach to write as if from a 'heavenly'
perspective. But, there is really no "good news" salvation
message in the Tribulation. I think that the people who
get saved during the trib will be those who never realized
before the love Jesus Christ has for them. I think there
will be little hope for those who have had all the good
news preached to them NOW and still rejected it. Let me
give you an example: Before I knew I was lost, I assumed
that when I came to the end of my days (sometime in the
far far future) that I would somehow be put on a scale of
balances - my good deeds would outweigh my bad...and that
would determine my rating in heaven (no, I never thought
about hell much).
Before I knew I was lost, I remember a conversation I
had had with someone when I said this, "I know WHO Jesus
Christ is...but how can I LOVE Him when I have never known
Him?" Now that was a prophetic statement, although I did
not know the "deepness" of it at the time. I believe with
all my heart, soul and spirit that was when Jesus began
calling to me - He knew I was searching, but I was spiritually
blind. This is what is meant, I believe, by "Once I was
lost, but now I'm found..." I was seeking, but HE is the
One who found me. The statement I made back then to a friend
was the key - I knew WHO He was, but indeed, how can I love
Him having never known Him?
After that, I finally realized that Jesus had sought me,
bought me, and saved me, and that's when I could finally
love Him. It was a heart thing. I had to fall in love with
Him, not just know about Him...not just believe that He
was the Son of God with my head....I finally could love
Him because I understood that He loved me first! How can
you not love someone who has REVEALED His love for you?
When two people discover and declare they love one another,
the relationship begins to blossom.
That is why I believe that the ones left behind, who will
be saved, will most likely be those who are witnessed to
by God's special witnesses, and who will come to the knowledge
and understanding that even NOW they can be saved if they
will show Him that they are willing to lay down their lives
for HIM, as He once laid down His life for them.
Those we witness to now, know who He is, but they do not
yet love Him. They may likely still reject Him in the trib
because they believe love is tolerance at any cost, and
they will feel bitterness, betrayal, anger, and fear. They
will ask, as some people even now do, "How can this God
let all these bad things happen to people?" They will blame
God - they will say things like, "If He is in control of
all things, why is He allowing all this evil and letting
these catastrophies happen?" But, I believe that the ones
who get saved during the trib will be those who turn to
Him knowing they deserve to be where they are - left behind
- and they will fall on their faces in repentance and will
realize the only hope left is not for their mortal lives,
but for a place in eternity with Him. And that is why they
will be willing to forego the mark and die as martyrs for
His testimony. This is the ultimate "Those who lose their
lives will find it."
Thinking about this, where does that leave any good news
to be said? There is none. And now I know why I am so angry
at those I want to address in a left behind letter - it
is because not only have they ignored or rejected my face-to-face
testimony and witness now...but they will probably ignore
and reject it even then, during the trib. And that makes
me angry because I see the loss - I realize if they are
left behind, having had every chance now to come to know
Him, they probably won't be saved at all....and I am angry...I
am angry like you would be angry at your child if you told
him over and over not to play with matches, and he did not
listen, and lit them and his clothes caught fire, and he
was burned and scarred............angry like you would be
at your child if you told them to hold your hand and not
dash ahead out into the street, but they broke away and
ran and was hit by an on-coming car.........angry, angry,
angry....because all the pain and hurt and anguish and suffering
and grief could have been avoided! But the anger isn't against
the child himself!
The anger is against the lack of obedience that could
have prevented the tragedy....because all the while you
are knowing the lack of obedience caused this - your heart
is breaking over and over, a million times over, because
of the injury, because of the failure, because of the privation
and loss. I got angry trying to compose a "left behind"
letter because I know that those I love will be in a state
of hardship in the trib and it is avoidable; and I am in
a state of sorrow even now, knowing they may likely be absent
from me for eternity. Have any of you who have children
ever said this: "I'd rather be sick then have them sick."
Have you ever thought, "I'd rather do this or do that for
them, than to watch them have to go through this."
Well, Jesus our Savior did just that - He died for us,
showed us He is Master/Conqueror over death; He resurrected
and gave us the assurance He would do the same for us. Is
God going to be angry at people who have rejected His Son?
Yes. Can we be righteously angry at those we have tried
to bring along with us, but who have refused to come? Yes....but
the sorrow overrides the anger. Kinda like when your child
doesn't listen, gets hurt, you want to yell at them "I told
you..." but instead you are holding them, hugging them,
wiping their tears and rocking them because they are so
precious and you love them so much...grateful it wasn't
worse, hoping they've learned a lesson, but nonetheless,
so glad they are with you. But for those who don't accept
Jesus Christ, there will be no "with you." They will be
Right now it is hard for me to even think that. I don't
want to face it. Perhaps that is why I can't write a left
behind letter - I get too angry, I get too emotional, I
get to sorrowful. How can I tell someone I love what to
do, how to cope, after I'm gone...knowing chances are I
will not see them ever again? How can I hold out an offer
of salvation through Jesus during the toughest times of
their lives, when they could not accept it during the best
times of their lives? How am I to cope with this loss even
now? Yes, in heaven, God will wipe away every tear, former
things will no longer be remembered.....but for now, right
here in THIS body....it is impossible for me to think I
can forget those I love so dearly.
Well, if this isn't a negative letter, I don't know what
is. Maybe I should just use it for a "Left Behind" letter
anyway. Maybe those who read it will see and understand
the anguish that we (who are saved) anticipate. Maybe it
could make a difference. If there was anything I could say
right now that would change someone's mind about their eternal
destiny it is this > GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD ....YOU!....THAT
HE SENT HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON - JESUS CHRIST - WHO LOVED
YOU SO MUCH THAT HE DIED FOR YOU - EVEN BEFORE YOU EVER
KNEW HIM - TO TAKE AWAY YOUR SINS AND GUILT. HE WILL TRADE
YOUR UNWORTHINESS FOR HIS WORTHINESS. HE WILL TRADE YOUR
UNRIGHTEOUSNESS FOR HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS. HE KNOWS THE WAY
AND HE WILL LEAD YOU TO THE FATHER IN HEAVEN. TRUST HIM.
LOVE HIM...BECAUSE HE FIRST LOVED YOU! That's all. He will
perform the miracle in your heart even though you might
not understand it or "feel" anything different. That is
what faith is. Faith is just believieng Him.
Loved ones, I want you in heaven with me...with the Lord
Jesus Christ! Please don't play with matches...please don't
run out into the street! I don't want you to be hurt. I
don't want you to be lost. If I could grab you and hold
onto you and never let go of you as I fly up to heaven to
meet Him in the Rapture - I would do so. I would never loosen
my grip on you. But I can't. So Jesus is extending His Hand
out to you right now....take it.
When you do, you will be ready to hear His voice when
He calls us up. He will never leave you, nor forsake you.
Only then will my own heart rest easy to know you will be
with us for all eternity. I love you! And as the song goes,
"If love doesn't last forever, what's forever for?"
For all eternity in Jesus,